*sOLitUdE* _____//*~in.my.own.fairytale.~*

Saturday, December 31, 2005

yoz... ytd went out w my sis.. then she suddenly said "how now brown cow" then i stun... apparently she's been saying that for 3 yrs le.. but smhow i din realise.. haha.. so freaky.. then the other day she was saying the "wa ah ah" too.. hahaz

anw feeling happier le! ytd went online then lucky i nv give up n go n slp! cuz smone came online hahaz.. weEz.. yay.. wait abt 2 days le.. heh..>.<

hmm im actually q dead.. my hw is like... hhahaz.. no need for further description.. yeps haish but q sad case.. today's new year's eve and im spending the later half of the day alone.. ='[ my parents gt some duno wad dinner w duno hu, then my sis gt steamboat w her chiong-ing frens.. so think maybe i'll stay at home n rot..

11:37 AM; unforgotten. Y

Thursday, December 29, 2005

haish. 29th dec has come.. smone's gone.. sadded.. i fell aslp.. n woke up 10 minutes late n he's gone.. so smart.. cud have shot myself.. gt q a scare when his mum picked up the hp tho.. haish but nvm.. at least i gt to see him ytd.. v happy.. he wore the shirt n choker i bgt for him to the airport.. hahaz.. wad an honor.. =]

accept and let go...

duno how many ppl told me that alr.. oh wellz..alr missing him haha.. so stpd..

10:35 AM; unforgotten. Y

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

weEz im back! hahaz.. had loads of fun! so exciting.. hahaz im alr starting to miss hong kong's food n weather and of course having all my band mates just rooms away.. oh wellz.. but we have to carry on w our boring lives eventually..

wellz first day was pretty rushed.. cuz we touched down at guangzhou at arnd 2 plus.. then had to collect instrus n luggage.. move here n there.. all the customs stuff.. then get on a coach n zoom to GDUFS... sounds vulgar but its guangdong university of foreign studies.. i think. haha... hmm we had a sound check n some rehearsals.. then aft dinner the concert start le! gdness.. like abt 4 days nv touch instru alr.. but still ok la.. hahaz.. so fun! gt to sit w yanzhen.. my silly little jnr.. little but still faster than me in sm things.. waha.. anw it was freezing cold there la.. maybe cuz we werent used to it.. wore 2 layers most of the time.. then aft tt we went back to the hotel... shared room with emmi... shower n everything le then we popped over to other ppl's rooms to play. to find out that most of them went for supper!!! sadded.. felt so left out.. think angela felt worse.. her whole gang went.. then i think we went.. nat's room for awhile then walk here n there hahaz.. duno wad time slp la..

i cant really rem the sequence of events le but i think we went to beijing road to shop.. hahaz.. i bgt silly stuff... ear muffs and a scarf.. cuz i felt really cold la.. i think the scarf was more fully utilized.. the ear muffs was jsut retail therapy haha.. then we went further up to the place w more shops.. i duno if its still beijing road.. but yea i bgt a shirt, not for myself.. and er.. OH a very nice cup of mango drink.. its like gt real mango in it.. plus sm jelly and ice shavings plus an ice cream!! very nice.. everyone hu tried it said so too.. n thats q a lot of ppl.. teeheez.. ohno im really mixing up the sequence.. duno which day we had lunch w mrs lim at the second level of sm place la.. then emmi ordered sm smoked spaghetti n she hated it so poor youzhi ended up eating hers while she took his spicy seafood noodles haha.. oh smhow everyone gt the honeydew ice cream tho it was only for the ppl hu ate the set lunch.. basically in guanzhou is just walking in beijing road la..

OHHHH we went for an exchange w the university of xinhai i think.. they are crazy.. they gt a whole island jsut for universities.. n they gt 600 piano practising rooms! gdness.. too much land to spare alr.. donate to singapore la.. anw the ppl there q pro.. they had brass quintet i thinki din really count.. maybe gt 6 ppl hahaz.. but the funniest part was.. there werent any euphos..so basically we din have to participate in the sight reading stuff w the xinhai ppl.. anw the ppl hu went were yixian n the nie trumpeter, daryl n mr seow, youzhi and the act pro tubist, kirby and the nie guy, qingyang and...another nie guy hahaz.. sry i duno their names.. but yeps while they were dying over there sight reading.. the rest of us were staring at their scores over their heads n taking pictures hahaz so fun

aiyar.. forget it.. skip to disneyland.. hahazz weEEEEEee so fun..but i v sad! my camera died at the parade.. n i din bring charger.. super sadded.. how stpd can i get..but well.. shall get ppl to send me pics.. went for the kiddy rides n walked arnd.. oh with er.. natalie ashley enghong kirby samuel chingtong karwai. space mountain was fun.. the speed was nice.. hahaz.. n the funnest part was to sabo the TWO of them.. no prizes for a right guess.. anw.. all the guys siao one la.. too high alr.. down there shouting "die!" "save me! i dowana die!" "say my name!" and sm other vulgarities... n samuel was being stpd... shouting wangzi and craig.. n sadly, for him, he gt caught on camera and we bgt it.. hahaz.. spasticated.. life is hard... waha.. then we went fort he buzz lightyear thing.. enghong super pro.. i think he gt to 70000 over pts la.. i only had 5400.. think level 6 or 7.. bleahz.. but thats cuz he knew wad to aim for.. his brother told him before the trip.. hahaz but i still admit he's pro..

then we went walking arnd abit.. then saw youzhi and the perc ppl n i think that gang la.. so yepz bgt mickey mouse's hands! haha n some cups.. oh then in that shop the guys were being stpd agn.. they started playing w the soft toys.. hahaz deprived childhood.. oh then there was simba,, the grown up version, so we made his mane into a triangular shape then we took a pic of it tgt w chingtong! wahah.. long lost brothers.. then we say samuel look like timon.. hahaz but he say it looks spastic la.. i think that was the point =P waha.. then kirby.. was nemo.. cuz kirby's mouth look like that when he whistles!! can ask kirby or nat or ashley for the pics haha.. next up was the 3d movie! it was really cool sia.. they really spray water at u and they spray those scented stuff.. like for the apple pie.. so nice la!!! n the funniest part was when we first went it.. the first thing we saw was the tuba next to the horn.. hmmz.. then we went into the souvenir shop.. n saw this conductor mickey.. i thot it was really cute.. then we were toking abt buying it for mr ho.. n guess wad.. samuel n enghong had to go n do sth really disgusting with it... i dun even wana describe..

hmm i think it was getting quite late then so we just went into the pooh's house to take a slow ride n take pics hahaz.. oh then we went into pooh's corner and bought more winnie the pooh stuff..=D then i think we went to watch fireworks le.. very nice! its better than our national day stuff.. i manage to catch some of it on my hp.. oh then samuel said "in singapore, we see it once a year, here they see it everyday" hahaz then the lady infront of him, facing me, like um qio-ing lidat la... -.-iI q paiseh actually..

aiyar ok next day was ocean park.. all i can say is.. the ppl there are obviously very thrifty n have a lot of time to waste.. cuz even w disneyland.. they'd still rather go ocean park.. the crowd there was much worse.. the queues were super long n ppl were trying to cut queue everywhere..but nvm the rides were q fun.. i finally took them after going there a second time.. the dragon was ok la.. but a bit too slow.. nt exciting enuf.. the abyss was quite fun! tho when i was going up i was panicking.. esp w stpd enghong just opposite me, flying up n down, shouting.. "ure next! die!" =S.. thanks la.. but after the first drop, everything was ok le.. hahaz.. q shuang actually..

think aft tt we went to causeway bay to buy lao po bing from hang heung.. its at sogo basement one.. really rocks.. hahaz they shd gimme commision man.. i brgt all of them there to buy hahaz..then aft tt we went to eat dinner. but aft that...we all ended up going back, nv shop at all.. cuz everyone said it was boring n decided to go smwhere else.. duno wad happened aft tt.. i think we went tang chao to eat dessert.. izit? ya i think so..then learnt how to play 9 cards hahaz..chingtong very blur.. the leaf is falling game and the open close game, enghong n melvin do until super obvious he still cudnt get it at first.. we all down there laughing until stomachache alr..but stpd me had to blurt out the ans.. then nat n enghong knew the ans to open close... sigh.. sry..i duno which day was it.. i think i nearly gt drunk.. nearly. i drank 2 cups of less than 50% concoctions of vodka w sprite/coke.. then my whole face turned red.. ashley also.. then i think kirby said his room smelt of liquor hahaz.. oopz.. but erwin wanted us to finish it.. so.. hahaz.. =P

last day.. did sm last bit of shopping.. then arnd 215 came back to hotel and move luggage n instrus then of to airport..

12:00 PM; unforgotten. Y

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

weEz.. today met them at 10 at city hall to celeb nat's bday! tho i thot i was gna be late.. i was actually right on time.. n this time surprsingly samuel wasnt the last to arrive hahaz.. ashley was late for half an hr.. gd job..

anw we walked to bugis hahaz for fun laughter peace and joy.. then walked arnd cuz it was still kinda early.. then we went to eat at fish n co.. the serving there is really humongous! cudnt finish my food.. hahaz.. once agn we were trying to "help" ct.. hahaz.. glhf la.. hahaz.. n as quoted from samuel... life is hard.. wahaz.. oh wellz.. its mean.. but.. its fun too hahahaha.. n ct doesnt seem to mind it..

wellz aft tt went to play lan.. first time ever in my life.. kpt getting killed.. but i felt a great sense of achievement when i killed samuel waha.. oh then there was another time i killed both ashley n samuel hahaz.. everyone stun haha.. ok nvm.. anw i dun think i will be playing it agn anytime soon..

then rushed off to meet my sis at orchard.. n the dumbest thing was... she was at bugis too! we cud have jsut met there la hahaz.. sadded..then we went coffee bean drink sth...n then we went cine to play pool! weEz.. nv play w her before.. hahaz.. its abt time.. anw q fun hahaz.. i think her angling very pro! as gd as ashley or even better hahaz.. she was qie until damn nice de.. jaw drops.. but she makes stpd mistakes at the most unexpected times too haha..

oh but the most impt thing!! gt this group of korean guys playing at the next table.. then gt one guy super cute.. then he gt the typical korean look but v cute n shuai at the same time.. hahaz.. but i think he kinda looks abit like my first crush.. hahaz..but anw i think we were very comical... as in my sis and i.. i kp whining.. n my sis hit the cue ball until it flew out of the table hahahaha... anw.. that guy came over to borrow chalk.. tho the weird thing was.. aft tt i realised his table also gt.. hahaz.. wasted! nv ask for his number.. hahaz...

then after tt we went to take neoprint! teeheez.. so fun.. i think it was the funnest taking w her.. weEz.. haven upload yet.. cuz haven took pictures of it so nvm..

anw tml leaving le! pls miss me! wahaz.. haish my sch work is like left untouched.. dieded... hows?! everyone like done q alot le.. ohz.. i need to buy lao po bing for my sis! hope i rem! anw so many ppl want me to buy things for them.. bleahz.. die la.. then my mum also dowana gimme alot of HK$... bleahz..

7:48 PM; unforgotten. Y

Thursday, December 15, 2005

haish.. today for once no band prac.. is act gd can rest.. but i feel restless.. im like stuck hm n i dowana do hw.. then i cant exactly go out... i miss slacking in the band room.. i duno why things seem so different now..i kinda wish things were back to the first half of the yr.. i noe gt gd n bad sides of things but duno leh.. sadded.. i feel q lost.. its back to the frens n band interphase period of time. hahaz wadever tt means.. like stuck in the middle of nowhere.

i miss being able to tok to sm ppl abt anything.. i always get the feel when ppl get to noe me, they'll start to shu yuan n dislike me.. ha... =X but sadly.. im a person hu values bonds.. so i cant just let myself be acquaintances w everyone de.. hmmz.. i duno if im making sense. hahaz random thots..

band trips coming.. abit scared.. oh they say now hk v cold.. i think i die le.. in nie bandroom i alr freezing to death alr.. n tts like min 16dec cels? if hk is said to be 10deg cels... gd luck to me..wonder if my nose will freeze n drop off hahaz..

9:47 AM; unforgotten. Y

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

sigh im alr missing band fest.. seriously its really fun.. i think im gna get whacked for saying this but i think barnes band is better than nj band.. at least we play tgt.. rush also abit only then will eventually get back to the tempo.. but the ppl mostly watch.. the balance also more or less there i can actually hear the different parts... sigh.. n i dun mean to be rude but i think the conducting is clearer too.. smhow band fest rehearsals felt more fulfilling than nj band pracs.. for now at least.. today i seriously played until damn bekcek alr..wanted to vomit blood..

9:16 PM; unforgotten. Y

Monday, December 12, 2005

boO was bored cuz i woke up early.. practised my eupho awhile n woke the neighbourhd.. surprised no one shouted "mai cah la!" [shut up la!] anw i read some blogs.. then did a whole series of personality quizzes... some results contradict but i find them true too... which means i gt split personality! omg.. hahaz.. duno la.. maybe is situational..but sm i also not sure abt myself..

Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

The Real You
Here is the analysis:
1. You are a very serious person. You tend to be quiet and well behaved, and you don't have a great deal of self-confidence. You prefer to be alone rather than with friends and that could make you a little less interesting to certain types of guys. You are very attractive in an individual kind of way, and this means it can take people a little while to get to like you.
2. You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.
3. You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
4. Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.
5. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.
What's your personality love style?
Here is the analysis:
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

Kind and Gentle
Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between

What does being a friend really mean to you?
You value your friendships: 70%
You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.

9:52 AM; unforgotten. Y

Saturday, December 10, 2005

ahhh i just gt home.. i wonder why i nv just go n slp.. haven even shower yet..

band fest for the last 3 days.. quite fun.. the songs n ppl are nice so not bad la.. n dun really have weird or qianbian ppl n i like my section... our pieces are ithaca, some american song thing and hunchback... sry la my brain not working alr.. anw tho nice but can play until die de.. esp ithaca.. then the american song also gt high notes at the end.. hunchback v hard to play expressively.. we're still breathing all over the place.. sigh.. n im alr half dead.. esp since on fri had combined prac w nie until 10 plus.. then fetched ashley to near his hse n nat home.. reach duno 11 plus le.. then slpt at 12.. then apparently 6 hrs odd of slp is insufficient for me to recharge..

oya qingyang's solo kps playing in my head.. hahaz so nice..

ohno i really dying le.. carried zy's eupho hm cuz i using it for band fest.. my hand is numb n flimsy.. n there are blisters on the palm before each finger la..

zZzz

9:35 PM; unforgotten. Y

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

more or less completed.. but im nt happy w it.. it looks bare!!

11:12 PM; unforgotten. Y

hahaz wee.. another piece of work due to my early-ness on mon. actually its half done.. but the band room open le so decided to stop.. the poor little flower at the side looks out of place.. with no leaves to accompany it... ohoh n the pic was taken using my hp! quite clear rite?? heh =D

4:54 PM; unforgotten. Y

hahaz it really says sth when u start dreaming of band ppl or band stuff everyday.. hahaz.. at least tts wad has been happening to me for the past few days.. tho the contents abit weird.. like disjointed but very hilarious... i shall say 2 of the more interesting ones..

we were in this sch compound then smhow all the band ppl were there la.. n i was an assistant chinese teacher [the books were typed in microscopic fonts] then the students laughed at me when i couldnt read it.. -.-iI

anw the aft lessons ended we all went to the band instruments storage room.. to take instrus.. the room is really dusty n ancient. smhow i took out a clarinet?! then sth was wrong w the reed [i seemed to noe alot in the dream but i think is all rubbish which makes sense in dreams kinda thing] then ashley was helping me fix it haha..

then duno why.. suddenly everyone all dressed in suits and gowns [like the xiong di, jie meis for a church wedding kinda thing] then we all went into this church [which i clearly haven seen before] then we were all at the front few benches.. like v excited lidat.. [so obviously smone from band getting married ba..] then it was a very grand affair wor.. still got dances de hahaz. n weirdly gt nycb ppl appear too hahaz.. those v long nv see le ppl..

eh but the guys looked very shuai qi in the suits hahaz.. i think the suits part is cuz i saw sm prom photos before i slpt tt day ahahz..

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then last nite de.. hahaz this is damn funny... hmmz

the whole group of band ppl alighted from the 179 at boonlay after band and we were going jp to eat i think.. then smHOW.. nat n ct were holding hands!! hahaz.. smore we like very happy n ok abt it.. like its not a v big thing tho.. then i rem seeing wanting trying out this "silent brass trumpet" except that it was functioning w a magic wand?! then saw yixian and zhiyong n daryl n sm other snrs too.. gt alot of ppl!! but i cant rem anymore.. hahaz.. ya i only rem tt part.. then i think i laugh until wake up hahaz.. duno wad kinda warped dream was tt..

11:38 AM; unforgotten. Y

Sunday, December 04, 2005

weEz.. yay today went to get my new hp!! sony ericsson k750i! hahaz.. my first ericsson hp.. hope i get used to it.. ive been using nokia all along..

its really cool.. the memory stick duo.. hahaz i used it to copy "orient express", "100years", "if ure not the one" to my hp! so cool.. then the camera gt alot of function too.. so hao wan!! teeheez.. anw.. my first dp on tt hp is my dearest... pooh!! hahaz.. so keai lo.. how can anyone not like him.. teeheez.. >.<

anw ytd nat came to my hse.. mugged alittle.. n i really mean A LITTLE.. hahaz then we went to listen to jaychous feng n play w piano n stuff.. heh..

8:47 PM; unforgotten. Y

Friday, December 02, 2005

wahha.. actually today abit sian diao de.. went to look for my black n white long sleeved shirt.. n bgt new contact lens.. then went to sch.. then like no one to tok to.. ended up reading chem.. then sat outside the bandroom awhile.. then went in when i heard orient.. hahaz.. cudnt help it..

anw.. things gt abit better when i saw yanting, yingxu, jac n a few more nycb jnrs.. so happy hahaz.. =D then when they left.. the duno wad to do agn.. so out of place..

then another happier thing!! i reach nie le i saw yanzhen!! she playing for nie n going hk w us. so exciting.. then today band prac sat w her.. hahaz.. like last time in ny lidat.. so huai nian.. i think we tok alot hahaz oopz.. but so nice to see her agn.. n have band prac w her smore!! *flies to the sky* weEEEeZ hahaz.. my dear dear jnr.. oh then warm ups tt time.. play Bb.. then so qiao both of us switched from tuning Bb to lower Bb at the same time!! to see whther in tune anot.. so funny!! hahaz.. exciting haha..

but i felt like i was blocking smone-hu-sits-a-row-infront-beside-samuel's view.. hahaz.. felt like they keep mei lai yan qu hahahaha.. oopz ok i shant say anymore.. otherwise yanni will come n kill me haha >.<>

11:41 PM; unforgotten. Y

Thursday, December 01, 2005

hahaz after reading the snr's reply to the comment, i really felt comforted.. duno if i have the right to.. but wells i did.. actually i also duno wad else to say abt tt episode but i think we are alr trying lo.. i mean we are but amateurs..

if tt person is a j1 or ip person rite.. then i think its q sad.. cuz they rather just bleah annonymously on smone's blog then to tell us n improve the situation.. moreover.. sounded as thot the person knew we were not on task for a v long time.. wonder why he/she din tell us.. hmmz =X

ah wellz.. enuf abt tt... im v irritated w my nose n ears!! baH.. my nose kps running n my ears are blocked.. i sound like to duck.. to myself only apparently since my ears are blocked.. but woO ashley thot me a new trick.. tt is to pinch my nose, close my mouth.. n swallow.. n poof! my ears are cleared! hahaz tho the left side still abit stuck hahaz.. but so fun to do tt.. wad an experience.. really.. like suddenly ur ears become super clear n u can hear things 10 times better tt kinda feeling haha..

then i need to promote sth.. vapour drops rock.. it really works.. if u have blocked/runny nose or sore throat [tho nt as useful].. pls buy vapour drops! it works miracles hahaz... well at least it worked for me..

ohohz last nite i had such a scare.. was kinda having a bad headache n decided to just check my temperature.. n it was first 35.sth... then 36.. so low la! i duno why so weird de.. normally i stress also temperature increase but now is the opposite hahaz so amazing hahaz...

hmmz today met alot of ppl.. met nutcase the horn jnr [i call her nutcase so much until i fgt her real name le =X] n lingxiu.. then christine from pri sch!! she became so chio le.. hahaz.. she dyed her hair really nicely n she grew taller hahaz.. nat was shooting me looks for saying tt..hahaz oopz.. but yea.. nice to see them agn..

7:34 PM; unforgotten. Y