eh? my tagboard out of place? where got? for me its ok wat..hm.. and sher ah.. sorry hor.. i wun be seeing u in hc.. but nvm.. just quite sad no one's gna be w me in nj.. bleah..oh well.. nvm.. n the pics cute rite? hahaz.. =3 oh n ying ying.. i downloaded all the opening and ending themes n burnt them.. oppz shh!! i like the haruka kanata! the second opening theme... *sings it out loud* hahaz..yup..

10:03 PM; unforgotten. Y

hahaz thx steph! *hugs*

oh n anw.. i think naruto's soundtrack kinda rocks.. the second opening theme keeps playing my mind..harukakanata.. hahaz.. hm..

9:08 PM; unforgotten. Y

ah well.. today's the day...well so far its nj for me.. at first i took it kinda hard n was sad n all.. cried alil and stuff..then on my way to school for band...i suddenly thot of wat Gai told Rock Lee..[bu4 xiang1 xin4 zi4 ji3 de4 ren2 mei2 you3 nu3 li4 de4 jia4 zhi2]。ya so i zhen zhuo qi lai.. well.. its not the end..all i have to do is work harder in nj and achieve more? just like last time p4 i was in em2.. and p6 did better than i expected cuz i worked hard! so yup.. shall not be all sad and whiny n irritating, lamenting abt not getting into hc and all.. waste of energy and time.. n like Dawn said.. leave it to God and wat pam always say..God has planned everything for us.. so i worry also no use..tho i still clinging onto a small hope.. cuz today ms chong showed me a msg from mr leng which said im on the appeal list for band.. but aiyar.. the greater the hope the harder it'll be for me to face the truth.. so now its just an incy wincy hope.. i think i really like naruto.. as in the comic.. act all that kinda comic.. those "wo3 yao4 bian4 qiang2" and"yin1 wei4 wo3 xiang1 xin4 zi4 ji3"those kinda comics.. to me its very ispirational esp when they do become better.. jiu4 suan4 shi4 yi4 dian2 dian3 de4 cheng2 jiu4, ye3 zu2 yi3 zheng4 ming2 wo3 de4 nu3 li4 bu4 shi4 bai2 fei4 de4...hahaz.. yup.. so i love this kinda comics.. like naruto, samurai x, slam dunk, hikaru no go etc...weE.. oh n i very gan ji ms chong for helping me ask mr leng n stuff.. but today aiyar.. the band bei ma.. abit hm..cuz its true.. but just as ms chong said.. i was thinking.. why is she scolding us abt not coming for practices when we are the ones who are actually coming.. but oh well.. hahaz..

8:58 PM; unforgotten. Y

boO.. i din go for grad nite n im regretting like siao now.. hear ppl tok abt it n he fun stuff they did n WorSE seeing all those funny photos whith all the chiobus.. i wanna cry! boOooOo..sigh...

anw..finally did the alterations to my blog n its up again! woO hoO! hahaz.. aiyar i forgot wat i wanted to say alr..

oh ya.. sigh i think im very lan!! why all the ppl around me so zai so lihai so you tianfen!!! i feel so lousy.. make me dun dare to play.. that lack of confidence is coming back.. i can feel it! oh no..

1:17 AM; unforgotten. Y

sigh.. these few days go back to band can say very happy and also very sad..

k first the happy stuff..hm.. i no longer feel the "this is not my band. i dun belong" kinda thing anymore le.. fan er.. i feel like its one big happy happy family.. and stimes i very gan dong.. duno why also.. and i think the band improved ALOT! good for u.. heh.. i no longer go "oh man.. wat will happen to them.." when i hear them play anymore.. yup.. thats good.,. however.. its not gold standard yet.. but NO WORRIES! i believe that in the remaining time, if yall work hard towards ur goal.. yall can do it.. yes... i cross my heart.. im telling the truth.. oh but jnrs.. have more confidence in urself!!! esp trumpet players.. play wrongly also nvm.. there's no one who nv makes a mistake.. yup =] ohoh.. and i think ms chong is a much better person..as in.. gan jue shang.. maybe cuz im freed from all my duties officially so im not that affected by everything so i can really enjoy the band practices..heE.. and altho im not playing realli well now.. at least im trying hard.. feels like my jnr days.. the have to work hard to play times.. haha.. nice memories..

ok.. now the sad part.. sigh.. i really cant bear to leave this band.. n im very sure i'll miss the band when i go to a new sch next year..n fine fine.. i miss all my jnrs.. just now when eating w the lil kiddies tt time i suddenly thot of wat wud it be like next yr when im in a totally new band.. n i act felt like crying..sigh.. to me.. jnrs are like lil sisters.. then esp the sec3s la.. always got this blur blur element.. make them so cute..[pls dun let ur ego get boosted ya?] but ya.. duno. i feel like a da jie jie somehow.. maybe u all say i thick skin or wat la.. but ya..even the sec2s and 1s.. altho my time spent w yall not say very long.. but i've already grown used to all of u being present whenever i step into the band.. all those familiar faces.. its like.. whn i say the band? the whole lot of u comes into mind..

still rem the very first day when i saw yanzhen, at first monica was our jnr.. then i went to her class.. then saw yanzhen.. the tt lil kid was like "i last time play baritone before!" then i was like really? n i cudnt believe she act join netball at first lo hahaz.. then duno when.. she came into band and impressed the whole lot of us.. i rem it was at the pop out part of the 3rd floor.. shud be 2/11 or sth there..then amanda asked her to play scale.. then she reached until A or Bb i cant rem then amanda was boasting to mabel.. haha n mabel jealous..so bian di yanzhen.. n tt ger until now still angry w mabel cuz of tt haha.. but ya la.. i also sort of hated amanda cuz she kan bian us esp since yanzhen came..then the first ever song yanzhen played in our band was animation.. and it was mr lee conducting..yup.. then aft tt.. everyone loved yanzhen!! haha then all the sec1s '02 tt were from our section were transferred out until left yanzhen only.. so we had our happy section w candy deb me and yanzhen.. the best 4 combi.. then once yanzhen said OMENS OF LOVE the "O" reminded her of amanda.. then all of us were very amused.. hahaz.. n now.. because of candy i think the both of us tend to speak in chi to bandmates.. stimes i think.. oh and i think act i've grown to rely on yanzhen alot.. which is i noe bad.. but main point is.. she kao4 de2 zhu4.. aiyar.. i mean dependable..i think she managed our section very wll.. just occasionally need to remind her of some stuff thats all.. yup..

then yanting.. haha our dear jnr.. beginning tt time i rem we teach her rhythm until wanna die.. like we teach to day.. by next tues she'd have forgotten it..then me and yanzhen down there very wu nai.. haha but well from tt lil jnr she's grown alot and improved alot..n im act very proud of her! =] now she can play solo and act q loud also.. and more imptly.. i see her smiling more.. still rem last time she always sit straight straight one.. then tell her sth.. she just turn her head to the side like a robot and give the slightest ever smile then turn back.. which was quite weird and scary initially.. but now.. really get to see her LauGH! tts great! but yanzhen just told me a very sad news.. i shant say it here.. scarly u duno yet.. but.. im very angry!!!!! the whole stupid maid agency fate will nv leave out section..they always nv care abt our feelings one.. bleah..

melissa..our lil'est jnr! but also very lihai for a sec1.. really.. im SoOOooo glad we got u instead of the tbones.. hahahha =Pyup.. melissa.. work hard and i see a bright future for u!! i noe u'll be very lihai one.. but try to reply us in chi when we speak to u in chi la k.. hahaz.. and must be more talkative during section lunches!! right now like only me and yanzhen doing the talking.. then like some entertainment box lidat...sigh.. yup.. must be a crazy nut snr.. yes.. act i last time also very serious one.. then whole day scare ppl away.. then i realise if i just relax abit and smile more.. be a lil crazier.. other ppl and myself will have a much happier time.. so main point- craziness is the key.. haha..

ok.. now i wud like to say more abt the sec3s.. i noe i just now still keep saying u all very you4 zhi4.. but i think tts not really true.. as in ya la.. when yall playing and stuff really very you zhi and silly.. but i think there's the other side of yall that ive seen in the past yr..i think yall have matured and grown..just now during band.. i saw yanzhen w her serious look again.. which reminded me of how i looked when i was in com.. hahaz.. ok wait off track.. but ya.. i think yall noe la.. being in the com stimes really stinks but yall still very responsible and do ur very best.. n tts very good.. n ive heard many of u complaining abt stuff n i dun blame u cuz seriously i noe.. during the time when i was in com.. i hated band.. im sorry to say so but ya it was true.. maybe it was the way of doing things la.. but oh well.. but im q sure most of u stimes just wanna let go of all ur responsibilities and just enjoy the music n bandmate's company.. but all i can say is jiayou.. it'll be over soon.. but meanwhile..just do ur best and no one can blame u.. we all have our limits.. n there aRE things such as frens.. oh but as i've said i think yall are doing a great job.. both in duties and snrs and being a crazy bunch of great bandmates..

ya.. n act i do miss ny and all the times ive spend in it..but i think i'll miss the band most of all.. aft all.. ive been in it for 4 years.. and experienced the most in it.. ya.. so current banders.. pls treasure every practice.. and all ya band mates! pls go bond.. n talk to evryone.. otherwise u'll really regret it.. stimes can just go mad and say hi to someone even if not really close.. haha like me! n u can have a happy day! like yesterday and just decide to buy stuff for the band.. heh.. yep..

sigh.. a new band next year.. not a very encouraging thot.. =X *tears*

8:37 PM; unforgotten. Y