*sOLitUdE* _____//*~in.my.own.fairytale.~*

Monday, January 31, 2005

today was quite a normal but hilarious day as usual..

pe was rather horrendous.. we ran 2.4 with one round extra as warm up n im super convinced im so unfit n lousy.. 16.36min la.. thats like D?n a very bad fail for guys..hahaz see the diff?n im becoming a pig la.. eating more n more.. im supposed to starve myself this week de.. nvm.. shall be more hyper.. sigh..im eating egg rolls now la..fatty poot..

hahaz i kpt niaoing cp abt him being an air con [cuz the things he say very leng3]hahaz.. but anw.. chem prac was quite interesting.. the oven looked so cool.. n i burnt my finger la! dotalised.. bleah..

then aft sch we went to behind the grand stand to paint banner..there was meerra, lavanya, tina, zhiru, grace, pinyuan, cheeyen, weeloon, sinwei, hongwei, chinping[hu popped in once in a while n give us chance to niao hima bt zhiru hahaz]. most of them left early or came later. so most of the time only got me lavanya pinyuan cheeyen n weeloon.ya then we sort of completed the banner already..

but during the time we were painting.. there was a certain someone hu kept passing.. but bleah.. now i can no longer feel happy when i see him le.. its more of seriously maluated.. pretending i duno anything.. sigh.. why my things turn out this way.. oh well.. n stupid nat was being n ass..[oh btw.. u still in ur foul mood ah nat?]

hm but anw.. aft tt we sat there n talk cock for some time then aft tt we watched the boys play chapteh[how u spell it?] for awhile.. n pinyuan super lihai la.. but aft tt we got bored.. so decided to go home.. then saw chinping again. then niao him abt zhiru again wahahha.. scarly rumour rumour rumour until become fact wahahhah..

8:40 PM; unforgotten. Y

Sunday, January 30, 2005

[this is from emmi's blog.. n i think the person hu wrote it must have seen too many sad things in life..]

as i mature..

i've learned that you cannot make someone love you.
all you can do it stalk them and hope they panic and give in.

i've learned that no matter how much i care, some people are just assholes.

i've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it.

i've learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. after that, you'd better have a big willy or huge boobs.

i've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to others - they are more screwed up than you think.

i've learned that you can keep vomiting long after you think you're finished.

i've learned that we are responsible for what we do, unless we are celebrities.

i've learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades, and there had better be a lot of money to take its place!

i've learned that 99% of the time when something isn't working in your house, one of your kids did it.

i've learned that the people you care most about life are taken from you too soon and all the less important ones just never go away.

10:05 PM; unforgotten. Y

wah laoooooo duno who so big mouth la.. apparent somebody told yk tt i like him la.. according to a source [i shall not name] yk told them over lunch tt his cousin told him.. but i ask lala she say she nv tell n i trust her.. then nj no one else noe le la.. no wonder everytime i walk pass him i got the feeling he noes.. but i thot i duoxin.. so maluating.. from now on im soo going to avoid him le.. bleah.. even his fren noes tt " an ny ger likes him" la..wth.. grRR if i find out hu ah.. kao.. i mei lian jian ren le!!!!!!!!! bleah

8:31 PM; unforgotten. Y

Saturday, January 29, 2005

ytday had sectionals in the morning with lower woodwinds la.. then practised orient express.. i love tt song.. but i very sad cuz i still cant realli play it yet.. then the back is totally cant play la.. but oh well.. i wun give up.. tts wad i have always been doing.. tho im lan i wun give up!! yesyes.. ok.. oh zhiyong say me n emmi play on fri.. so i suppose mon i dun need to play? well i think i'll still go n prac in the morn heh.. yay..i love orient.. like some happy happy train journey.. like field trip!! hahaz..

ok nvm.. anw..aft tt mr ho came.. so went in for main band.. then as usual q fast la.. but was abit slower.. so the infront still can play.. go to the back the high high place i totally lost le.. zhiyong also got abit lost hahaz.. for once..

but anw.. once again.. my happy sectin got section lunch!! n poor nat.. who was paoqi-ed by her section [which is so sad la.. from wad i hear.. EUPHO SECTION ROX] ya..so she joined us for lunch at curry wok!! ahahaz n she asked stupid qn.. "so we are eating curry?" hahaz nonono we eating woks.. wahahhahha oh man.. dumb la.. then youzhi went duno where first so the euphos plus a horn went in first la.. we order q alot.. or at least by my standards.. then donap said he told erwin abt me n hq.. which so totally not true la.. then when youzhi came.. he said erwin told him when alot of ppl were arnd.. so basically now alot of ppl noes abt tt myth la!! grr.. stupid boey.. was so super angry w him i totally dao-ed him for the next few minutes.. then later.. oh ya.. cuz nat n zhiyong asked for more rice [free flow for fan tongs!! hahaz] then it came in a bowl.. then when youzhi came.. he thot it was his then he ate from tt bowl.. then the uncle was like "why u eat from tt bowl?! i go get a plate for u.." hahaz damn funny la.. then he kept saying so cold.. then were like.. huh cold meh? hahaz kan qi lai like very weak la.. then he kept saying wad.. got two aircons then vector velocity so end up blowing him or sth lidat..

then aft tt we went coro..and slacked la.. emmi n boey left.. [hahaz mmaybe is cuz emmi left tts why boey left.. hm..]ya.. then we started laughin abt zhiyong being a bear bear hahaz.. so totally xiang la.. his built.. then he's so nice smore.. then nat was saying he looks so huggable.. hahaz can go cameo in winnie the pooh hahaz "winnie the pooh and the big brother bear" nat n i can imagine him in those bear suits with a hole for him to stick his face out la wahahha.. can u see tt image? so cute rite.. hahaz.. ok anyway.. got this super irritating idiot outside cosy corner there la.. then he kept saying wad "how i go find mc?! i go bash my head against the wall or break my leg la", "eh.. gimme ur no. leh.. then is end to u la.." n the thing is he's super awful looking.. then the funny part was "he no coming already la.. he say his butt pain" then we started laughin so badly..oh but the funniest part was when zhiyong said he watch teletubbies b4..tt guy very accurately said "WAH LAO" as if answering to his statement la.. damn funny.. then i cudnt stand it ready n burst out laughing.. tehn i think he sort of realise we were listening la.. then not long later he left le.. hahaz.. i cant stand it.. BEAR BEAR!!! hahahahahah

ok anyway. so we left coro.. then i had to go bkt timah interchange get my concession stamp la.. but the stupid thing was closed for the person to have his meal break.. so we walked tot he lib.. BUT IT WAS CLOSED until 26 feb.. so we walked to macdonalds n did our work there.. then nat so easily distracted la.. then i had to take her hp.. wait until she finish the qn then let her reply.. tsk tsk..

7:16 PM; unforgotten. Y

Friday, January 28, 2005

wahahha wad a wonderful day..ok at least quite nice la..

the first nice thing tt happened was.. as i as walking up the grand stand.. a certain someone happened to be standing there with his fellow house mates.. but the thing was.. i was damn slpy la.. so brain got lag time.. act from a few metres i saw him le.. but brain no reaction.. but when i walked rite pass him.. n passed him.. i suddenly realise he was there la.. so ya.. then when it was near assembly time, everyone was everywhere la so i just stood near the stairs higher up the grand stand n looked down.. n once again.. had gd view.. hahaz..if u get wad i mean.. goOD vIEw hahaz.. n so qiao ignis was rite beside aqua followed by aerius? is tt how u spell it? but anw.. saw youzhi n qi sheng[aerius] edo, erwin, n i think qingyang.. duno if he's from aqua anot.. [oh n saw specky!!] ya..

then we set off to run la..then the group of us ran as a group very slowly.. or rather almost as a group w some faster or slower ppl.. ya..but we talked quite alot la.. bonding session!! hahaz.. i think i was doing quite ok la... considering i seriously cant do long dist one..

ya then cheering session.. aiyar.. basically during the whOLE roadrun thing i saw hiM alot alot alot of times hahaz.. like some special video clip featuring him lidat.. [as in from my pov] hahaz but ya.. ignis took the longest to settle down so the whole house had to do the forefeit.. which was to write "ignis" with their butts n NAT WAS RITE IN FRONT!!! wahhahaha super funny.. oh then cheering results.. we got second.. as in aqua got second.. bu4 cuo4 le4.. hahaz..

ok nvm.. so aft tt our class de [excpt a few ppl] went to behind the grand stand to pain the banner.. at first it was quite wad la.. nobody doing much.. the slowly they became more enthu n helped out.. so now mostly done le..i quite happy.. special thx to meerra hu drew the rooster n everything else..

then aft tt we went to eat at kap.. the we saw 05s09 there too.. then saw specky again wahhaha.. ya.. then we played truth or dare.. then i wu yuan wu gu zhong cuz ppl say wrongly or sth.. but lucky i got aware with "do u have a brother?" which is a stupid qn but gd for me cuz its just no.. hahaz..but the funniest was.. we amde stanley do wad nat told me tt day.. go over to the 05s09 ppl find a ger n twirl her hair.. but since it was such a paiseh thing.. we let them noe its a dare first la.. hahaz but he was q sporting la.. then we basically made everyone zhong la.. cuz we were actually playing zhong ji mi ma.. then the one hu zhong will choose truth or dare la.. then de only other dare was fiona. adithya made her take a packet or nuggets pr sth.. go to the casher n ask for refund.. damn funny la.. but the person could see it was a dare la.. hahaz so not tt bad..

then we went back for astro.. then had some lecture where they showed us pics n stuff abt the orion sirius pleladies n NASA etc.. then aft tt the 3 chs ppl n me had to wait for our parents hu were at the parent meeting la.. for me is my mum n sis cuz my dad nt free.. then weeloon just pei the 2 guys but his parents not here.. then arnd the break tt time we went to the reception area la.. then we saw johannes.. then we stand there tok tok tko.. the suddenly i saw hIM wahha yes. n so many occasions he was so near la.. but i din dare to look la.. unless he facing another direction or sth..oh then saw emmi also.. she like so tired out la.. the poor ger.. aiyar then aft tt found out weeloon was from rulang n my sister teach him as a relief teacher b4.. hahaz singapore is a small place..

8:51 PM; unforgotten. Y

Thursday, January 27, 2005

hahaz..! mine shall be A urs shall be B ok?

anw.. today stayed bad to practise my eupho again la.. n im super convinced im lan.. sigh.. ah nat!! u make em feel very inferior la.. i still canT play alot of parts of orient express!! super sad.. bleah.. n my slurring deproved so super much la.. SAD!!! booOoOoOo..

but anw.. aft practising i went for dinner w nat at bkt merah's macdonalds n i ate sth nEW FOR ONCE in a very long time.. wad grilled chicken foldover or sth lidat.. then we talked abt alot of stuff.. esp abt B wahahha so funny.. i shall not say too much other wise she'll kill me.. but im SO convinced.. we shall see la k?hahaz.. so funny.. but i din noe B so smart de.. sense of inferiority sigh.. everyones so lihai.. =[..

oh oh but anw.. A was involved in the pub stunt today la.. damn funny.. i practically burst out laughing la.. so corny.. wad mojo jojo hahaz..i laugh until stomachache.. then i see rdy duno whther to laugh or cry.. cuz.. just super funny la.. oh man.. then he was like flapping his.. coat? but look like a xiao hai zi playing w those superman suit lidat.. oh well.. hahaz..

10:37 PM; unforgotten. Y

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

well as u can see it has been a really awful day for me..

firstly.. im realli pissed wit my class la! class spirit my foot! a few of us desperately tried to plan the class outing n ask them whther which days they were free or wad they wanna do.. then they everything also say cannot or dowan.. then theY dun give any suggestions la.. so smart why dun THEY go plan la.. i already bad mood le still gimme all the crap..then i so desperately wanna cry i went to the toilet n tokked to my shitting fren.. as in literally shitting..duno wads their prob..is not only the guys la.. the gers also.. n today once again our class has been identified by the whole lecture theatre for being noisy cuz of a few guys.. like we dun have a bad enuf reputation.. why cant they be like the other class.. guai yi dian.. enthu yi dian.. more united yi dian.. fine la.. maybe its MY FAULT cuz im incompetent n lousy.. so FINE.. i wash my hands off all affairs of anything to do w the class unless its bio cuz im the rep.. i shall nt be enthu le.. i thot if one person was enthu.. it wud drive the others to be likewise.. obviously it was wishful thinking on my part..

q a few ppl said tt our class ppl very noisy n said bad things abt us.. but i defended 05S21 la.. then they come n give me this kinda shit.. im seriously damn disappointed.. all those things i said n felt for the class.. i see them going down the drain.. why am i staying...

n band.. tho its not really being pissed but more of disappointed.. i practised ytday for nth.. cuz im equally as lan.. as if i nv practice.. n at the speed they are going i'll nv learn the 2 pieces.. have to memorise 60% by march smore la..then being such a sucky day.. i just cant help feeling lost n hopeless.. i just wanna cry out loud.. i dowana be lan but i can help it.. they are both grade 6 pieces for goodness sake la..n i no longer have the potential i had.. so just leave me to rot n die..

n when i walked to the side gate with nat [im sorry for her cuz she had to hear me grumble n grumble.. sorry nat.. n she was pei-ing me la.. the poor thing] theni use the file to bang my head.. n somehow it was not a bit painful at all.. so tt shud tell i ahve no brain.. n walking out tt time i suddenly heared the yayaya cheer then i turn arnd n saw hIM there.. but being so pissed i cudnt even bring myself to smile or be happy..

to make things worse.. he wasnt going home cuz he was crossing the bridge.. grEAT

9:35 PM; unforgotten. Y

Monday, January 24, 2005

wah lao this morning i woke up so traumatised la! i had a hard time slping last nite cuz of the noise coming from the television.. then when i finally fell aslp.. i went into a series of nitemares can..

i think the first one was some band outing or duno wad outing la.. alot of ppl de.. then when going home.. we were walking along this uluated path that led to an uluated mrt station or sth. then the whole place only got me n this ger[stranger.. i dun even recognise her face la..duno where all the other ppl went to] then we said hi.. er very late ready tt kinda things la.. then she ask me where i stay.. then i said telok blangah.. then she said same! then suddenly we got abducted by this unknown person n got stuffed into this box like thing.. then tt person psycho one la.. then he was trying to stab us with a long knife from, the outside.. then so freaky la.. then tt ger had a daughter.. then i rem tt at one pt of time.. she said sth abt wanting to get out to see her daughter.. then sth sth she wanted to do her daughter proud.. then SHE DIED SAVING ME!!! wah lao.. she practically got stabbed rite infront of me la.. i was so freaking traumatised i have no idea how i escaped.. think it just jumped to the next nitemare.. so ok..

i sOMEHow escaped.. n it was still dark.. i was walking home or sth.. then suddenly i felt sth go loose in my mouth.. then all of a sudden.. all my teeth came falling off!! like non-stop la..[somehow i had alot of teeth to fall off] then i was so realistic la! i could see the diff teeth like the molar, canninem chisels etc.. then i was so scared la.. then my mum appeared n say dun worry she'll make dentures for me. then i freaked out la.. i rem aft tt i still haven wake up la..so must have had one more nitemare.. but i cant rem wad..

OH then today lunch break tt time so xingfu!! he sad two tables away facing us la~!then i beginning still kp stealing glances.. but aft tt he saw me!! tehn i bu gan kan le.. then nat ame n i sort of whined abit to her.. then she was being so crappy la.. say wad.. she can stand the other side.. so i can pretend to tok n look at her when im actually looking at him.. ahhaz so funny la..=P ya.. but aft tt.. sadly we went lib.. so cannot see him le..
oh man.. shows tt ive been thinking too much abt class outing n my teeth during the day.. =X

8:27 PM; unforgotten. Y

Saturday, January 22, 2005

heyazzz! today was the first nj band on sat.. i still love sat band prac.. feels more band-prac-ky.. hahaz..

we had sectionals and we spent the whole of it just on the first page of amazonia.. hm.. abit slow.. oh then duno wads up w donaphan la.. zhiyong say wad he scared of duno wad thing then keep following him.. and anw i cant play fast enuf la.. when we went into the band room.. the conductor took the normal speed then i blur diao.. only caught a few phrases here n there..ESP orient express la.. tt wan was a killer.. i just sat there n dai diao..hahaz but i think zhiyong very lihai..then donaphan will be there going "zhoyongzhiyongzhiyong" every few minutes..he purposely la!.. oh ya during sectionals emmi dropped by for awhile.. ok anw.. so we played those two songs until abt 1240 when the ppl came to chase us away..

then we went out for lunch w the snrs.. ok.. here are the names i still rem.. zhiyong donaphan [euphos], crystal or izit krystel, kaixiang [basses] esther, siying [bassoons] minghui[tbone] daryl or izit darrel? natalie[horns] erwin? i duno how to spell, jasmine, qiyang, yixian?, wilson[trumpet] edo[clarinets]adeline, sharon, sixun [these ppl i not sure of their sections]ya.. but anw.. donaphan so qian bian! lame! leng3! qian bian! lame! leng! QIAN BIAN! yes.. tts all i can say abt him la.. then he ah.. like small kid la.. kp taking ppls stuff then running away.. the let ppl chase.. [eh act sounds abit like me but NO.. ok not like me.. cuz im not least bit like him] oh n i finally found out why emmi n don cannot sit together.. they tt time go nie for band prac fight until don bled.. so hiong la.. hahaz.. i eventually got into the habit og stepping on don's foot.. oopz.. i feel abit bad la.. cuz i really use al my strength n step de.. =X until he wanna change section le!! no la.. joking.. yes.. n i shuo cuo hua la.. then let him de2 cheng3 for awhile.. but aft awhile i decided tat if i ignore wad he says jiu tian xia tai ping le.. hahaz.. yay..

oh.. zhiyong is supposed to be a cow? n he got four stomachs.. then duno wad thing they say he like to eat grass.. i abit blur diao on this part.. cuz its mostly crapping on don's part n abit on crystal's.. hahaz.. yup.. then we went to MAST music at this paradiz centre or sth. which i have nv ever been to before la.. n the whole group of us squeezed inside there.. hahaz.. q funny.. then got this computer playing a jap documentary on how to tune ur instrument.. haahz.. so funny..

then aft i went home w nat.. both take 124.. then she so evil la.. wish the bus wud come faster so tt we can overtake them [who were walking to city hall] on the bus n gek them.. hmm childish..

4:43 PM; unforgotten. Y

Thursday, January 20, 2005

OH MAN! today is such an exciting day!!! hm.. shall go straight into the pt w alil bit of intro..

sigh our last lesson was the totally sucky bio tutorial.. i was practically having a heart attack la.. im really traumatised by her can.. i felt so much like crying.. i duno why.. then plus my headache.. things were totally horrible for me.. i signed for grace in the attendance thing cuz she was sick la..then someone stupidly showed her where was grace's name in the thing then piak mrs chiewy asked n all la.. then the whole class came up w excuses for her hahaz.. but she iS sick wad.. i love my class.. always back each other up..

ok anw..so aft last lesson.. on my way back to TC04 along the stretch of TA classrooms.. i saw someone walking towards me fromt eh councillor's room there within 50m.. i suddenly realised who it was n started walking faster n eventually broke into a run.. so gan jiong la! but aft tt i regret running away.. if not maybe can see him longer or even bump into him la~! oh man.. wasted.. but anw.. aft the briefing with 04s21 nat called and asked if wanna stay back do hw until 5 lidat.. so i said ok la...then we went to the canteen n crapped alot more then do work hahaz.. but at least i finish one whole graph qn.. nat only finished one partial fractions qn within that 1 hr hahaz..

then stupid la.. she keep gekking me abt seeing him everyday.. n one day duno see how many times.. wad " ' I ' 's for ignis" bleah *kicks her butt.. but anw.. at around 5 we decided to go.. then the 961 came then we got on.. then realised yanrong was there too.. very long nv take bus with her le.. ya.. so we started toking.. then i came to the qn.. wad class are u from.. then she replied.. 04a02.. then my eyes practically popped out n i smacked nat n told her.. then nat was laughing la.. then i was like oh man.. then yanrong kept asking why.. n asking me to tell her la.. [she happened to mention the house cap in her class] then she asked izit abt an OGL then i said.. er.. ya.. then i asked how many OGLs are there in her class.[6] then i said all councillors ah? [no.. only three..] davina n hu? [beatrice, an scgs ger] then we saw seats so we decided to go n sit la..then she was like [from my class one ah?shuai izit?] then i said.. ya just now told u ready wad.. not say very shuai but (obviously i wun say very shuai rite mad..) [orh.. not bad la..] ya then she said.. [ izit a guy?] then i was like huh?! ya la.. if not? ger ah.. then she finally said.. [hahaz u've been fooled.. there's only one guy in my class.. so i noe hu already..] then i was totally shocked n paiseh n speechless la.. then nat was laughing like crazy.. then subsequently she n yanrong kept raising eyebrows la.. so qian bian.. bleah..

ok..ya.. then coincidentally.. she was in his clique la! then like so amazing. n qiao.. oh he's the only guy in the class with 19 gers as classmate.. so wad la.. abit ke lian also.. why cant i be in tt class!!!! ok anyway..so nat was like.. any interesting stories.. so ya.. she started giving me details a.. n i was trying very very hard not to blush or smile like an idiot la.. he's abt 175-178cm arnd 65kg.. was previously in softball tho he's very zai in soccer.. was from acs i...he lives arnd bishan there..they had class party in his house la..[I WANNA GO!!!] then last yr his parents were overseas or sth then he went to live with SHEILA!!!! oh man i so so so so so so so super jealous of her la!! whyYyYyYYyyyYyYYy.. so unfair.. like the whole world is somehow linked or related to him.. excpt meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee unfairrrrrrrrrrrr! grR..boO i very sad.. then last yr supposedly he takes 961 or 174 which is like the buses i take la.. n YET i nv see him b4.. i think cuz i go home too early.. boO im super sad..

seriously.. i duno this is called you3 yuan2 or super mei2 yuan2.. cuz the yuan2 is with the ppl arnd me.. noT mE! ya la.. so gekkiating.. if i may coin this word..ahhhh PYK!!!='[ oh ya.. im quite sure im going to stay in nj le.. the biggest reason is because of the sch itself n the ppl..theres a good mix n the ppl are nice.. love my class n snrs.. esp the OGLs! they rock.. the band snrs are nice too! the second reason is.. im already getting very used to nj n im losing interest in hc.. sounds q boring already.. [this is called psychology] then another reason is of course.. him.. hahaz.. but i wun say like because of him im staying in nj la.. everyone will call me shen jing bing or stupid or sth else la..

6:27 PM; unforgotten. Y

Monday, January 17, 2005

yippie.. happy start of the week..

hmm.. played for assembly with the band for the first time n it wasnt tt bad for me.. my national anthm was quite gd.. cuz like play for 4 years already.. but the school song abit wad la.. when it came to the quavers my whole section like suddenly cut half the volume then i din dare to play la.. then tt whole part the band sounded so soft.. so scary.. cant be my ears suddenly block diao rite? anw.. my section mate has no dynamics sense la i so cant stand it.. he plays f all the time?! n this tuba player kp playing the wrong notes n he plays so loudly so the whole world noes its a wrong note la?! why the guys just like to play so loud when they so obviously havent memorised the score?

kk.. then pe... it rained la.. so heng we dun need to run the route for the road run otherwise i'll just faint n die.. but we ended up doing all those aerobics kinda step up n down thing.. n DAMN FUNNY!! my fren cant do jumping jacks! as in she totally cannot keep in tempo w ppl, ppl raise hand up n jump out, she'll put hand down n jump in..so funny.. then i was panting cuz i was laughing so hard la.. then had to do this weirde kinda one high one low pumpings la.. im so lan at hand exercises..ok next

during break!! man i love break w free period after tt cuz i always get to see hiM.. i think.. cuz today.. we were waiting at the canteen for this fren to come out of the toilet so we can go to the lib to fin our bio group work la.. then i was like swinging my back here n there.. then swing swin swing then i fling myself around n there he was! wahahahaha.. n i think he saw me too.. n if i were him.. i prob will shock diao.. cuz why got this mad ger swing here n there, see him then faster turn away la.. like jian gui lidat.. hahaz but oh well

ok.. then went lib to do bio, n they really v strict! no pe attire means no pe attire.. but tts kinda gd also la.. n we finished our work within tt single period! efficiency! wahahha

ok.. chem lab is like ok damn zai n funny la.. dun have all those long long crap introductory stuff.. just straight away start pract which iS efficiency..but anyway we were suppose to find the no. of moles of water of crystalization la.. then have to heat the thing then the gas thing is press down instead of pull up then turn la.. then i was like trying to pull it up then eh? why cannot.. then the flame was still there la.. then my fren suddnly press it down n switch on the gas, then the flame was like so big la! scary.. then i heated the thing.. then i saw my shoe lace was untied.. so i left it on the bench to cool while i tied my shoelace.. then when i took up the boiling tube again.. i saw this black patch thennnnnnnnn.. i was like shit!!!!! i melted the bunsen tubing for the gas to come up la.. lucky no hole.. but i ahd to redo the damn thing la.. so not funny. oh then we were teasin chin ping abt zhiru until he got quite pissed.. oopz.. but duno true anot leh.. if not true why he so affected by it?

n this is sth by sheila.. i thot its quite funny but relevant to wad we're learning so decided to put it up..
"den i'd haf formed many strong covalent bonds w the other elements in rj cos we share smth in common (like electrons) den a larger amount of heat will be needed to destroy these strong covalent bonds. now what i haf are weak hydrogen bonds."

8:59 PM; unforgotten. Y

Sunday, January 16, 2005

ahHhh i very sad!!! i went to this pet shop w my sis today n saw this 3 mth old golden retriever! soooooooooooooooo cute and sooooooooo guai can.. then when my sis was carrying it tt time it din even struggle or anything then just keep licking uor hand n let us pet.. but my mum say wait until she retire la.. which is ten years later.. so piak.. tt dog already 70 years old la! oh n it doesnt have a name yet.. so cute can!! i always wanted a golden retriever.. ahhHhH i so sad.. when have to leave tt time the dog like give tt look like [why u all leaving me behind lidat] wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i wanna cry le.. *sniff* i think i wanna go there every week to see it lo.. boOo so ke ai.. the mao so nice.. the features so nice.. the eyes so mi ren..so handsome.. its a he!! wahaha anw.. i m so going to study hard, get a good job, get high salary, buy a bigger house, tHEn get my own golden retriever! hmpz.. qisile...

8:33 PM; unforgotten. Y

Friday, January 14, 2005

woohoo~! hahaz today's a super nice day la.. realise i laughed a whole lot la..tts gd!

started off w a real nice morning! saw hiM again finally! cuz ytdae whole day nv even see him at all la! which is like so sad..nat say maybe he din come to sch cuz i din see him at assembly either.. then lesson were rather chaotic today.. we were super noisy la.. but it was fun.. i like our chem n math teacher.. greatest disliked teacher goes to bio teacher mrs chew.. she such an old hag la for goodness sake... n she's super disgusting!!!!! i saw her biting her nails then aft that she was like duno peeling or plucking sth on her fingers.. super sick la.. i hope she nv touches me.. i'll get contaminated.. eww~! then during bio lab we were all like so not listening la.. n liyuan totally fell aslp la.. best..

anw.. during break if im not wrong i saw hiM walking past but it was so fast n i din turn back to see.. so i not sure.. =[.. ya.. the aft sch.. we sat in the canteen n did hw to wait for 530 to come.. i was so falling aslp la.. but at least i finish my bio.. or at least wrote wad i could write until i cannot think of anything else le.. then i joined them in playing bridge.. 05S21 de and sam from 05S20..then play abit have to go change le.. at first we were so damn sian la.. looked so boring n the out of the 15 ppl who signed up.. only 5 appeared la.. but later i learned that chee yen, ping yuan and weeloon went for the soccer thing n they came aft tt la.. so we started off with all the introducing and stuff which was STill very boring.. then played some boring old bang bang bang game la.. but ok we proceeded to play zhong ji mi ma n this guy called song hao kna then have to forfeit hahaz.. then we made him say some mushy stuff to jialing who happened to be nearby..

then was the station games la.. had to pass the rubber band from the first persont o last with only toothpicks which were in out mouths n we won by ALOT! wahahhaha tts great then we made them forfeit by pole dancing.. tho it ended up as pillar dancing which wasnt exactly dancing.. sigh but oh well.. then got this weirded thing with flour and gettign ur face into coloured water after turning ten rounds on the spot la.. kao.. but ok nvm nxt..then was the battleship game n in the whole group.. initially only like one person knew wad the game was abt la.. n it took so long that we sorta lost interest.. then SUDDENLY! i saw this familiar silhouette.. then i decided to look again n there HE was! wahahha.. just great.. din expect to see him at 7 sth lo.. then i think i wasnt really sitting in a very wen ya way.. oh man paiseh.. then he was like looking at wad we were doing la.. then walked pass.. duno got notice my existence anot la.. hahaz.. then aft tt got this quiz thing la.. the prez will ask us qn then if we get correct we will get water bombs.. haha then end up we anyhow guess la.. then got alot.. then gt this other guy super zai la! duno where he from then all those super hard qns he also can ans lo.. then aft tt we threw at the snrs.. hahaz.. their white shirt become greenish blue la..hahaz..

then we proceeded to the track to star gaze la.. the those 3 chs guys brought this frog form the field over n tried to scare us la.. so lame.. but at first we din believe la.. then they threw it away.. so aft tt we were so afraid we mite step on it.. but anw.. we saw the constellation of the orion n its belt la.. n saturn n its rings! then the guy told us alot abt it.. so cool lo..ya..wad sirius, betelguese hahaz n rigel etc.. so fun..

oh ya.. marshmallow guy, he who has the kiddo purple back is like always arnd la!! another one of those i see everyday! manz.. oh ya.. n he takes 156? which is i think same as yk!!! oh manz.. sobs.. or izit 157.. hm.. anw.. tired le.. shall stop here..

10:30 PM; unforgotten. Y

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

ah!! nv go online for a few days le.. yup.. ok shall tok abt today.. wahaha squeals..

hm.. today in the morning aft assembly i act q sad one, cuz every morning rite, will see him at the parade square.. then today nv lo.. so i nto suan le.. today wun see him.. sigh.. then aft pe.. when i was walking up to the canteen, my fren say tt he was there but when i gt to the canteen i din see him la..so i was like.. bleah.. today finally break record, nv see him le..then aft our break during our free period we were still in the canteen la.. then i turn arnd.. then see him walking pass! then duno wad happen alot of ppl came to tok to him like 2m away..then they were there for like 5-10 min la.. then my heart skipped a beat.. hahaz then i chenji steal glances la.. hope he din realise.. scarly he think i stalk him or sth..

oh then aft band.. saw the whole lot of council ppl coming out from the gate la.. but sadly.. he wasnt there.. boOo

9:46 PM; unforgotten. Y

Sunday, January 09, 2005

to stay or not to stay...?
the greatest issue for me now..
feel unwanted by hc...
the step i have to take...
which one is it?
no matter wad it is..
there'll be pain inflicted..

God help me..

7:45 PM; unforgotten. Y

i decided to put this on a new entry..

oh then got this very qiao miao de shi...got this OGL la.. thruout the whole week i keep seeing him then first day i was in his house[cuz no class yet] then he stood very near me when teaching the dance then he got one part demo with another ger infront of me.. and then second day he was standing behind me in the hall cuz his house directly behind n i was the last person of my house then third day i saw him in the canteen and another time after the water games we were picking up the remains of the water bomb then walk pass again then ytdae aft buying stuff for ogl came back i saw him ban-ing things then aft tt during the bbq i went w an ogl to get sth upstairs then WALKED PASS HIM AGAIN i think he was going to change i think cuz he was in a suit for the play ya.. so i think its very amazing.. and noW i realise he's lala wee's cousin la.. piak diao... so paiseh.. but at least can dig info out from her ahhaz..

oh ya.. today grace came over to bake choc cake.. was quite a disaster.. we saw 350 F as 350 degC la.. so it was so super chao da on the top lo.. but the second one was quite ok la so overall not so bad but i feel quite apologetic la.. cuz the cake was for.. ahem.. nvm..

oh well now i feel horrendous.. yinger's going hc.. everyone's at hc now.. i feel so left out.. i wanna cry le..talked to yiyou abt it.. bad mistake.. she's not exactly helping.. i think on mon i'll go to sch feeling teary the whole day..

6:49 PM; unforgotten. Y

Saturday, January 08, 2005

ahhh one week over le!! dear steph.. im realli afraid tt aft first 3 mths i may not wanna go hc le.. even if i can la tt is..cuz aft ytday bbq n all the crazy dancing i love my class!!! which leads me to another sad thing.. i hope aft first 3 mths they dun split us all up leh.. adawise i'll just faint n die..

ok.. thursday aft the orientation for the day ended, the antonio house went out to eat at the fish n co beside parkmall..[tts my first ever time there]n they booked the whole top level.. but end up the top level not enuf space so my class went down to eat.. we were separated into three tables n at my table was grace, eliza, huiling, zhiru, alicia n me.. then alicia was like super blur la.. she just left her hp there n went to the toilet.. so we took it n hid it la.. then we made her tell us abt her long story... but she din wana.. so we got her classmate weijun.. hu supposedly is q big mouth de.. n so we decided.. if he told us wad was the long story we wud treat him to the meal la.. n so he told us..[i shant say it here la adawise alicia wud kill m if she knew] but ya kinda sweet hahaz.. oh i forgot.. this was aft multiple times of stealing her hp..n she wudnt learn from her mistake hahaz.. shows how lousy she is la.. =P oh but the food took soooooooooooooooo long to come tts why we had so much time to play n the place was rather freezing so must b abit more hyperactive to keep warm.. hahaz my reason to be naughty..haha.. so the food finally came n weijun took one look at it n told alicia.. i bet u wun be able to fin it.. n he said thinks like..so oily.. aft tt u'll grow fat n *** wun like u anymore..then alicia started dabbing the fish with a tissue to remove the oil. but seriously it was SUPER oily la..oh aft her.. we managed to steal grace's wallet.. so she had to confess her story as well.. ya..

kk.. fastforward.. aft we fin eating we went up too, then there was this sexiest butt contest going on, but the contestants din noe tt.. they thot it was just some kind of paiseh play...then the script was super funny la.. there was little timmy, the three sisters, the hunk, and the butt spanking villain.. all played by guys who, i have to say, were really sporting la..then wad haven to do pole dancing, stretch n touch their toes w their butts facing the audience, n spank each others butt those kinda stuff.. i was so funny lo.. u'd have to be there n see it to really laugh ur head out man.. then the hunk won la.. tho i think all of them were really good hahaz..

ok then aft tt my class S21 sat outside fish n co to discuss abt fri's bbq n stuff..hmm.. here there isnt much to say la.. but aft tt we went to istana park n play!!! woO we were playing zong1 ji2 mi4 ma3.. then the forfeit was truth or dare.. then the first person was chin ping n he chose dare la.. so we made him go up to this guy w his gf n flex his muscle n say "am i stronger den u?" then the guy act said yes la[but in actual fact the guy was so much bigger size.. so lucky he din bash him up la]then aft tt the couple like hurry out of the park lidat.. damn funny..den the next one was chee yen i think.. then we went over to the next OG that was nearby.. he had to say to two diff gers "do u have a prune?[no]can i have a date?" n "*looks up at the sky* there are no stars in the sky tonight..*look into the ger's eyes* because they're all in ur eyes" wahhahaha so mushy.. but they knew it was a dare la so it wasnt tt paiseh..last one was jocelyn..she had to pick the top 3 guys from our class hahaz.. but she anyhow pick la.. then give some lame diao reasons.. aft tt i went to search for toilet w grace n chee yen.. then we THOT this place was a toilet la so we walked in then i suddenly saw this dead up-side-down big big lizard like thing n start squealing la.. cuz like i almost stepped on it.. then grace saw n thot sHE stepped on it then we cont squealing together n ran out lo.. then end up we crossed over to ps to go toilet.. then aft we go toilet, they called us n told they were coming over to ps cuz sth happened la.. during the last dare..siang yong had to do pumping over this OGL la.. then this ah bek saw n said in chinese "wat ure doing is too disgusting, at such a young age do this kinda thing already, wait till i report to the newspapers then u noe.." which is like totally ridiculous la.. cuz she only neeed to do once n the guy was face down.. n she only pump over him la..not like she did anything wrong.. then this other OGL gerrard was damn pissed lo.. hahaz.. so end up they came over to ps..then we met sihui the house captain n krystel and chris[the last 2 got scandal!]then sihui ask me my name..so i told her.. then my mum called so i had to leave n go to the bus stop.. then a the bus stop, i met th 3 of them again.. n guess wat sihui said.. "eh u look like just now tt vanessa" n i nearly fainted n died..so piak diao can..hahaz.. ya..

ok finally!! fri.. met w our snr class 04s21.. ya then the BAND sc was in tt class la.. called bo yeong or sth i think.. then kena sabo-ed as the group leader for my group on the cultural mapping trip la.. which was like so boring.. bleah..n the teacher in charge[CT of 04s21 thank gdness not ours] can be a monster but he's also super lame la.. most of the things he say also very dots wan..ya then got 2 hour break so we chiong go buy stuff.. maj of our class went to buy food for the bbq.. then five of us grace, jocelyn, meerra, tina and me went to buy the cardboard from BTP's popular to make the card for the OGLs.. ya.. then we chiong back w only 1 our left.. had to design, cut, make, draw, write, and stuff within tt hour lo.. n is get 25 ppl to write the msg.. nv felt so stressed aft the exams..then basically we were abit late la.. but still ok.. then all the np ppl went to start fire.. n chin ping so lihai! he light the fire starter then put it in w his bare hands! at least i think so la.. cuz i dun even dare to touch the thing..n 409 ppl.. i realise tt day our bbq method was totally WRONG! ure not supposed to have a flame, the charcoal is supposed to glow.. ya la.. so lidat..

then got alot of dancing n stuff.. at first we still abit restricted n awkward la.. then later into the nite ppl start going mad la.. oh then we dedicated a song to the OGLs then when it was being played.. we brought out the cake with lighted candles. then we prepared four bottles of sparkling juice then we shook it n let them pop it, followed by making them wear this kiddy heartsthaped sunglasses.. so funny la.. then the cake mostly when to our faces and body more then our mouths.. ya.. then we kept dancing the mass dance over n over again n made this new crazy cheer.. hahaz.. which was by the gers.. cuz the guys wudnt allow themselves to look like fools la.. but i think overall it was super fun! except for the part i became so dizzy i had to sit down.. oh! guess wd i only ate a slice of pizza, a bite of sausage n drank alot of stuff.. hahaz.. but ok la..

oh then when everyhting was over.. they were ban-ing beches back to the canteen.. then i was carrying my bag le but grace sad we each one take one bench la.. then i thot ok lo.. dun duno wat i was doing la.. hold the thing too near one end that one side hit the floor w a loud bang.., so many ppl lo.. so paiseh.. the suddenly it became so light! then i was like.. eh wat happened.. then i turned around n saw this tall OGL carrying it for me lo[i see him around q a few times le smore.. den even more paiseh] then he was like i carry la.. wah super paiseh like so useless lidat.. oh man..ya lo.. so aft tt i just stood tt looking like an ultra mei yong de ren.. then suddenly my parents called n said theyr eaching le.. so i dashed out to the main gate, walk until my feet hurt.. reach home showered, fall aslp almost immediately..

2:27 PM; unforgotten. Y

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

ahhh just realise i haven tagged for quite some time.. anw.. nj's quite fun la.. i gotta admit.. i think they really ahve school spirit? tho i dun really like one teacher already..hahaz oopz shH.. hm.. my class is 05S21 or S6F la.. n i think the ppl are nice! yup.. n the gals are more enthu than the guys in general la which is so sad lo.. wonder if they're really guys hahaz... but there's this guy who always make alot of noise hu in the end got sabo-ed into being the OG rep wahahhahaz.. but i think he's those can be serious if need to type..

OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH there's this guy in nj who looks super like TAUFIK can.. on the first day of orientation i saw him tt time i was like jaw-drop is he taufik's brother or wad.. smore during mass dance he was such a natural! then my poor fren ahnat had to step on his foot on the very last dance of the day n get all embarrassed.. oh n he very gentleman also ahhaz.. oh then today take same bus as him n i think he caught me looking at him.. wahahah oopz..

ok... hm.. shuai ges? not really very shuai ones la.. but if u bu yao xian got quite a few la.. among the OGLs only [so far la] ohoh.. got this OGL tho not say very shuai but he got this hao3 nan2 ren2 look then i cant help staring at him stimes wahahha oh n his the head of another house =] yup.. oh then got this chio OGL in charge of my group previously from st nics[alicia] a talkative small sized ger in TOUCH RUGBY previously from st nics too[shu xuan] a guy who supposedly learnt english for only 3 years and has a super long name[johannes] n a ger hu's in indian dance and council hu's realli nice[sunnita] is that how u spell her name? oopz.. but anw.. i kinda like my class.. tho they're not exactly very enthu as compared to the other class la.. but they're still fun.. esp the gers hahaz..

oh then today was cca carnival.. n obviously i joined band n i psychoed sheryl into joinging band again too hahaz cuz initially she din wanna.. but me being *cough cough* so in fluential.. muahaha.. so she join ahahz.. ya then my class crzy la.. like 15/25 ppl joined astronomy.. which is like a slacker cca la.. every 1 a fortnight weekend, we go to sch at nite n stare at the stars? wahhaha.. hm.. ya.. then i thot tts it for me.. n i was feeling quite sad at not getting a sports cca.. then suddenly my fren tina came n like appealed to us to help her form the gers cricket team. cuz currently there's only the guys team n they say if she can find enuf ppl they'll let her form a team.. so now we are frantically trying to look for ppl for her n so far 4 of us from S21 joining, then she's like going to be the pres n we'll be com mems.. n like everything we can decide la.. so fun.. the uniform, date n time of practices etc etc.. i think its very nice to be in a cca which u n ur classmates started.. there'll be such a strong sense of achievement ya? but i scared i'll she3 bu4 de2 li2 kai nj if i can aft first 3 mths.. but i wanna be w the 409 ppl..*sniffs* then i'll be caught in a dilemma.. boOOoOo..

oh talking abt boOoo reminds me of cheers.. nj ppl love to cheer can.. like they cheer at every chance they have.. which is quite fun la.. but it gets tiring aft stime n i start losing my voice.. haha.. oh n i still cant sing the sch song[which is in malay] yet.. not surprising rite? ha.. ya.. then some of the cheers i also not sure yet.. then the mass dance! oh man im such a loser at dancing.. feel like a person with 8 hands and 8 legs.. i look so pathetic can.. bleah.. anw.. its 8 already n i haven ate my dinner so gtg.. bbye~!

7:46 PM; unforgotten. Y